The Missing Part of My Heart
It was just after 1:00 in the afternoon
when Victoria and Audra drove their buggy into the town of Stockton.
"I'll drop you off at the dressmakers Audra, and then head over to
the general store to pick up the supplies we need."
Victoria told her daughter.
As Victoria entered the store she heard
the store clerk, Mavis, tell some customers that they were in Luck.
Then Mavis beckoned Victoria to come over.
"Victoria these people where just
asking for directions to your place."
Mavis said.
A short, balding man in his early fifties
stuck out his hand "Hi, I am Sam Miller and this is my daughter
Lilly."
Victoria shook the man's hand
" I am Victoria Barkley."
She then turned to shake the hand of the young lady.
There was something familiar about the girl, but she could not place it. The young lady couldn't have been more than 5' tall, with a
petite frame. Her brown hair was
pulled up into an attractive bun, and her brown eyes shone with life.
She looked to be in her mid twenty.
In her arms she held a pretty blond girl with blue eyes.
The little girl was about a year old.
Lilly extended her hand to Victoria,
" It is good to meet you. We
are looking for a Heath Thomson and were told that he lives on the Barkley
Ranch."
"That is correct. If you would like you could follow my daughter and me back to
the ranch. Heath is out on the
range working, but he will be in for supper.
You can join us for supper?" Victoria
offered.
"That would be very kind Mrs.
Barkley, but we don't want to be any trouble.
We just want to talk to Heath."
Lilly said.
"Oh nonsense it will be no trouble
at all, and probably the best way for you to catch Heath. He is awfully busy this time of year. I just have to get some supplies here and then pick my
daughter up at the dressmakers. Where
do you have you buggy parked?" Victoria
asked.
"We have arranged to rent a buggy
from the livery stable, we just have to go pick it up." Mr. Miller answered.
"Good, then I will meet you out
front of the livery."
Mr. Miller and Lilly both agreed and left
the store. Victoria bought the
supplies she needed then headed to the dressmakers to pick up Audra.
She told Audra about what happened in the store.
They then went to the livery stable.
Victoria introduced Audra to Mr. Miller and Lilly.
Then they headed back to the ranch.
Victoria could not help, but wonder what the man and young lady wanted
with Heath. Lilly had asked for
Heath Thomson, not Barkley. So they
knew Heath before he came to live with them a year ago.
Why did the woman look familiar to her?
*******************
Mavis had watched and listened to the
conversation between Victoria and the other two.
When she heard that they were looking for Heath, she took one look at the
little girl in the woman's arms and came to her own conclusions as to why they
were looking for Heath. She told
everyone who came in the store.
********************
"Boy howdy! Is it ever hot
today." The blond cowboy said
as he wiped his hand across his brow. Nick
and Heath had been working all day rounding up stray cows.
The day was one of the hottest this summer and both boys were hot and
thirsty.
Yeah! It sure is a scorcher. What do you
say we knock off early and head into town for a drink before super." Nick
yelled over his shoulder as he headed Coco toward town.
"You won't get an argument from
me." Heath answered as he
turned Charger, to follow Nick.
As the two boys rode into town, Heath
noticed people on the street where staring at them and whispering. "Is it just me Nick or is everyone watching us?"
Nick looked around and agreed that people
did seem a little interest in the arrival of the two men. "Just ignore it Heath let's get that drink."
Heath and Nick dismounted and tied their
horses to the hitching post in front of the bar.
When they entered the bar everyone stopped talking and turned to watch as
the two boys walked to the counter to order their drinks.
"Have we spouted wings or
something?" Heath asked under his breath.
The blond man was beginning to feel very uncomfortable with the attention
they were getting today.
"I said to just to ignore them.
Give us two mugs of beer Al." Nick
ordered as he pushed his younger brother toward one of the stools in front of
the counter.
Heath sat down thanking the barkeeper for
the tall mug of cool beer, which was placed in front of him. Heath had just taken his first gulp of his drink when three
men, who where sitting in the corner of the bar approached them.
"I hear there is congratulations to
be had, Heath." One of the men
said, as he handed Heath a cigar.
This Man was John an ex-employee of the
Barkley, who could not accept taking orders from "A bastard".
When Heath first arrived at the Barkley Ranch John was amongst a group of
hands that caused problems for Heath. Finally
Nick told every hand that Heath orders were as good as his own and if anyone had
a problem with it they could pick up their pay.
John was one of the hands to leave the ranch that day.
He went to work for a neighboring ranch.
But he never stopped looking for ways to cause problems for Heath.
"What are you talking about?"
Heath asked.
"Well the way I hear it there is
this pretty little filly totting a little blue eyed, blonde girl, looking for
you. Since the lady came with her
father it looks to me like there is going to be a shot gun wedding in the Valley
soon." John sneered.
"Hey Nick, It looks like your
Bastard brother has his own little Bas…" That was all John could get out
before Nick shut him up with his fist. Then
the other two men with John rushed toward Nick and Heath, soon the whole bar
exploded into a barroom brawl. A
gunshot caused everyone in the bar to stop fighting.
"All right that is enough
boys." The sheriff yelled.
The sheriff took everyone over to the
jail. Jarrod, who was just coming
out of his office to go home, saw his two brothers being lead to the jail.
He went over to the jail and posted bail once again.
The three brothers rode home in silence.
When they reached the ranch they tended to their horses and headed to the
house.
On the way to the house, as Heath lagged
behind his two brothers Nick filled Jarrod into the cause of the bar fight.
Jarrod gave a low whistle under his breath.
The three brothers entered the house.
"What happened to you two."
Victoria asked Nick and Heath when she saw their ripped clothing and
bruised faces.
Neither one of the two boys answered her
question, so Jarrod informed her and Audra that the two brothers were in a bar
fight, but he didn't tell them the cause of the fight.
Victoria told both boys to sit down in the sitting room, so that she and
Audra could tend to the cuts on their faces.
Reluctantly the boys did as they were asked.
"Oh, Heath there is a man and woman
here to see you. Since they were
tired from their trip I told them to use a couple of guestrooms for a nap.
They will be joining us for supper."
Victoria informed her son. Heath
Stiffened as Victoria told him this.
"And she has the cutest little girl
with her." Audra added.
At this Heath bolted out of the chair he was sitting
"The kid ain't mine.
I don't care what lies that woman been telling you."
Heath hissed.
" Are you sure Heath, after all
father didn't know. Jarrod asked.
Heath glared at his brother.
"I am not my father! I
wouldn't leave a woman to raise a child of mine alone.
I'd make sure of it. That
kid ain't mine."
"No one is claiming that she
is" a rough angry voice came from the entrance to the sitting room.
"My daughter's late husband is the
father of the child. My daughter
isn't the kind of woman that you are implying.
Sam had just gotten up from his nap and was heading down stairs when he
caught the tail end of the Barkelys conversation.
It infuriated him to hear what this man thought of his daughter.
He just wanted to go get Lilly and Sarah and get out of here, but he had
promised Lilly. On the trip
to the ranch Sam once again tried to convince Lilly to forget about talking to
this fellow Heath, but Lilly insisted she want to meet and talk to this man.
Sam once again gave into his daughter's wishes, but insisted that he was
to be the one to meet Heath first. He
would explain everything to this man. Then
and only then would he allow his beloved daughter to meet him? Lilly reluctantly agreed to her father's wishes
"My granddaughter is not why we came
to see you Mr. Thomson, my daughter is. May
we go somewhere private to talk."
"What ever you need to say to me you
can say in front of them." Heath
said nodding toward his family. He
did not know what this man and his daughter wanted, but he did not want to talk
with him alone.
"Very well then."
Sam sighed and began his story.
"About five months ago my daughter's
husband was killed in a buggy accident. Lilly
and her daughter moved back home with her mother and I.
One day my wife and Lilly were up in the attic getting some of Lilly's
old baby things out for Sarah when Lilly found her adoption papers.
We never told her that she was adopted.
It was something we hoped she would never find out, but… "
Sam voice broke as he choked back tears.
"Secrets and lies always find their
way to surface no matter how hard you try to bury them."
Heath snapped "But I don't see what any of this has to do with
me."
"I am getting to that."
Sam hissed back at the impatient blond cowboy standing before him.
Again he wish that he could just forget the whole thing.
"As I said, we never told Lilly she
was adopted so it came as a shock to her. She
kept asking my wife and me about her real mother. We refused at first, but after a couple months of Lilly's
angry questions and tears, we gave in and told her as much as we knew about her
birth mother. All we knew was that
Lilly was born on May 25, 1852, in a little mining town, called strawberry, to a
unwed woman named Leah Thomson." Sam
said
"That’s a lie."
Heath yelled as he launched himself at the man.
"My mother had no daughter."
Nick and Jarrod each grabbed one of
Heath's arms to pull him off Sam. Once
they had Heath restrained, Jarrod said "Mister I don't know what game you
are playing, but I think it is best if you and your daughter leave now!"
Sam pulled out some papers from his vest
pocket and held them out to Jarrod. "We'll
leave, but first look at these papers. They
will prove what I say is true."
Jarrod
let go of Heath's arm and took the papers from Sam. He then carefully read the papers. When he was done reading he handed them to Heath.
Heath refused to take the papers from Jarrod.
" I won't read any of his
lies." Heath snarled as he pulled himself out of Nick's grip.
"These papers are legal adoption
papers. They show that Lilly was
born on May 25, 1852 and was adopted by Mr. Miller and his wife on November 29,
1852. They have your mother's
signature at the bottom."
"Then they have to be fake."
Heath choked.
Heath desperately needed for all this to
be a lie. Leah had been the one
person who loved him when everyone else just treated him as dirt.
When the lies and cruelty of the world hurt him, he always knew she loved
him and wouldn't hurt him with lies.
If she had give away one child, did it mean she only kept him because she
could not find anyone to take him? That
she raised him out of feelings of obligation and guilt? Was
he the punishment she felt she deserved for her sin?
Was her love for him only a lie?
These thoughts raced through Heath's mind as he looked at his older
brother.
Jarrod
looked into his blond bother's eyes and saw pain and confusion.
Oh how he wished that he could tell Heath what he wanted to hear.
That these papers were fake and that Mr. Miller and his daughter were
just a couple of cons, but he couldn't lie.
"I am sorry Heath they are real.
That means that Lilly is your twin sister."
Heath
turned away from the others and walked over to stare out the big bay window.
"My mother would not give away a child like a puppy or kitten just
because the litter was too big. But
if these papers are true then that is what she done.
I don't understand how could she could just give away her daughter."
Heath's voice was hoarse and his shoulders were shaking.
"Neither could I."
Came a soft gently voice from behind him.
Heath turned. As he
stared at the petite woman before him, all doubt of what Sam had told him faded
away and he knew it was the truth. Lilly
was the spitting image of his Mother, when she was twenty-five.
Heath backed up and leaned against the window.
"But then I found out she
didn't." Lilly said as she
approached Heath.
Sam tried to stop his daughter, but she
shrugged off her father's hand. "I
promised to let you tell him about me and the adoption, but I will tell him what
we found out in Strawberry."
Nick walked over to Heath and placed a
hand on his younger brother's shoulder. He
stood protectively between Heath and the young woman. Over the last year that Heath had been living with them, they
had all learned of the hardships and pain that town had cause Heath.
Nick hated that place. He
hated it even more when something or someone showed up to cause Heath further
pain. By coming here and claiming
to be Heath's sister this woman was causing Heath enough pain.
Now she wanted to tell Heath something else that happened in that stink
hole of a town. Nick just wanted to
tell this woman to pack up and leave his bother alone.
He noticed his mother giving him a warning look that said not to
interfere. Nick stood by Heath to give him as much support as he could.
Victoria had seen the look of recognition
on Heath's face when he saw Lilly. She
also at that moment realized why Lilly looked familiar to her.
The girl look like the picture of Leah that Victoria had seen on Heath's
dresser, in his room. Lilly was Leah's daughter and Heath's twin.
When she saw Nick approach Heath she knew that he want to make the girl
shut up. She threw him a look to
warn him not to interfere. What
ever the girl was going to tell Heath, he needed to know.
Lilly stood looking at the tall blond
cowboy, and could not stop telling herself that this was her brother.
He was a part of her real family, a connection to her past.
She wanted to run to him throw her arms around him, but he stood
defensively staring at her. When
her brown eyes meet his dark blue eyes she saw his pain, confusion, mistrust,
and a sense of betrayal burning through them.
She understood all these feelings, for she herself felt all of them when
she found out the truth about her adoption.
"After my adopted parents told all
they knew about my birth mom, I was determined to come Strawberry and meet her.
I had too many questions that only she could answer.
My father insisted that he would accompany me."
Lilly began her story.
*****************
Lilly and her father stepped onto the
streets of Strawberry. Lilly
shivered as she looked at the desolate streets of the town where she was born.
They walked the dusty streets looking for someone with no luck until they
came to the cemetery. There was a little black woman kneeling by a grave.
She was humming a hymn as she tended to the flowers, on the grave.
They approached the woman
"Excuse me Ma'am," Lilly said
to the woman. The black woman
turned to see who was there.
"Oh, Miss Leah! You come to take me
home." Mistaking Lilly for
Leah, Hannah believed that her time on the earth was over and that Leah was sent
to take her to meet her Lord.
"No my name is Lilly, I am Leah's
daughter, and I'm looking for her." Lilly
answered. She was confused by what
the woman had said.
"Oh! Leah's lost little lamb finally
came home. She was so happy the day
her two babies were born. Her heart
broke the day you were lost."
"I wasn't lost. She gave me
away." Lilly snapped
"Oh no child, she did not give you
away. That no account brother of
hers stole you away when Leah was sick with fever.
His wife past herself off as Leah and signed the adoption papers.
After Leah was better she found out what her brother did.
She went to the sheriff, but he wouldn't help.
He just told Leah that her brother did her a favor and if she was smart
she would get rid of the other child too."
Thinking of how she would feel if someone
took away her own daughter, Lilly's heart cried out to her mother.
"Where is my mother I need to see her."
"She's here." Hannah said pointing to grave she had been kneeling besides.
"She died over a year ago."
Lilly
collapsed by the grave and wept. Sam
with Sarah in his arms walked over and put his arms around his little girl.
Oh how Sam wished that they never came here.
He also wished that Lilly had never found those darn papers.
At least it was over now. They
could go home and Lilly could heal.
Lilly stood up, wiped tears from her eyes
and looked straight at Hannah. "You
said that the sheriff told her she should get rid of the other child as well.
What other child?"
"Heath.
You and he were born on the same day.
But she wouldn't give him up; he was her pride and joy.
He is such a good boy. Hannah
voice rang with pride when she mentioned Heath.
"Yes he's a good boy."
"Where is he now?"
Lilly asked
"He lives with the Barkelys in
Stockton now." Hannah
answered. Lilly thanked the woman
and turn to her father.
"We have to go to Stockton.
I need to meet my brother. " Lilly
told her father. Sam tried to
talk Lilly out of going, but she insisted, so they headed to Stockton.
When Lilly told Heath about what Uncle
Matt and his wife did to his mother and Lilly.
It was more than he could take.
The anger and hate he carried all these years toward his Uncle exploded
within him. In an angry rage he
screamed "That
son-of-a-bitch," as he drove his right fists through the bay window he was
standing by. Glass flew everywhere.
Nick grab Heath's injured arm. Blood
poured from two very deep cuts.
"Jarrod, go get he doctor" Nick
order his older brother, but Jarrod was already racing for the door.
Heath tried to pull away from Nick's grip on his forearm.
"Stop
it Heath, we got to stop the bleeding."
Nick told Heath, but Heath did not care all he wanted was to get away
turmoil that raged inside of him. Again
he tried to pull out off his bothers strong grip. When Nick wouldn't let go Heath threw a left hook and caught
Nick in the jaw. His punch forced
Nick to let go of Heath's arm as he fell to the floor.
With his arm free, Heath bolted to the
door. Nick jumped up and tackled
the retreating blond. Nick finally managed to pin Heath to the floor.
Heath tried to free himself, but he was too weak and tired from the loss
of blood. As Nick held the injured
man down, Victoria rapped the towels, that Audra had gotten from the bathroom,
around her blond son's forearm to stop the bleeding.
Then Heath lost conciseness from the loss of blood.
"Can you help us move him to his
room Mr. Miller?" Victoria
asked Sam.
Sam and Nick carried Heath to his room
while Victoria kept direct pressure on Heath's cuts.
Audra ran ahead of them to pull back the sheets on Heath's bed.
Lilly
followed the procession up the stairs. When
she reached the top of the stairs she heard her daughter, Sarah, crying from the
guestroom where the little girl had been left sleeping.
She was torn between going to care for her daughter and staying with her
brother. Knowing she would only be
in the way with Heath and that at this moment her daughter needed her more, she
went to Sarah. She entered the room crossed over to the crib, that Victoria
had brought down from the attic for her to use, and picked up her daughter.
As she took care of Sarah's needs, she
couldn't stop thinking about Heath. As
long as she could remember, she had felt that there was something missing from
her heart. Now she knew that the
blond man lying in the other room was the piece that made her heart whole.
She kept seeing his pale face as he lay on the floor as blood poured from
his arm. What if he bleeds to
death? She couldn't lose that part
of her heart again. "Oh
God!" She prayed"
"Let him be alright."
When Sam was finished helping Nick get
Heath into bed, he went to look for Lilly.
He found her in silent pray holding Sarah tight.
Tears ran down her face. Once
again Sam wished that they had never came here. He wished he could take away his daughters pain, but knew he
could not. He walked over and gathered her in his arms.
*******************
The doctor finally arrived and stitched
up Heath's arm. Since Heath lost so
much blood the doctor had to risk a blood transfusion.
Nick provided the blood. The
doctor then gave Heath something to make sure he would sleep though he night.
Everyone took turns sitting with Heath.
When Heath awoke Lilly was sitting with
him. When he first awoke and saw
Lilly he mistook her for Leah. "Mama."
He croaked
"No,
its Lilly" she said as she brushed a piece of his blond hair from his face.
"You sure look like her you
know." Heath said
"I
am getting that impression." Lilly
smiled as she asked. "What was
she like?"
"She was the finest woman you would
ever meet. She was kind,
gentle and so full of love. She had
a hard life, but never complained. She
sacrificed everything for me." Heath
stopped and looked into the face so much like the woman he loved.
What kind of life would this girl have had if she grew up in Strawberry?
That place had taken Leah's life. Would
it have taken Lilly's too?
"Did they treat you right?
He asked.
"Oh yes, I could not have asked for
better parents than those who adopted me. They
gave me everything I ever needed. I
love both of them so much." She
assured him.
"Well maybe it was for he best then.
Strawberry is no place to raise a girl.
I just hate the pain that man caused mama."
Heath said.
Lilly leaned forward and hugged Heath.
"I am sorry he hurt her too and I am sorry I will never get to meet
her, but I am glad I found you. You
are he missing part of my heart."
"I glad you found me too, Sis."
Heath said returning the embrace. The
two twins held on to one another as if their lives depended on it.
Walking by Heath's room Nick heard Heath
and Lilly talking, so he entered the room.
"What are you lying in bed for boy? We got work to do."
Nick joked.
Lilly did not realizing it was a joke.
She stood up and faced Nick. "My
brother is in no shape to be working today MR. BARKLEY."
She yelled at the intruder
"Lilly it's okay. Nick's jus." Heat
h tried to tell Lily that Nick was only teasing but she cut him off.
"No! It is not okay.
Any employer that insists on an injured man working is lower than a snake
in the bottom of a wagon rut." Lilly
screamed as she advanced toward Nick like lioness protecting her cub.
She poked Nick sharply in the shoulder causing him to back up into the
corner of the room.
When Sam, Victoria, Jarrod, and Audra
heard Lilly yelling they all came racing into the room to see what the problem
was. What they saw was Nick backing
away from a very angry, petite woman and Heath doing his best not to laugh.
"What wrong." Sam demanded
"I will tell you what's wrong."
Lilly screeched. "This, this SNAKE."
Lilly fumed pointing angrily at Nick.
The look Lilly shot Nick caused him to back up even further into the
corner. That was all Heath could
take and he broke out laughing. At
the sound of his laugh Lilly stopped her attack on Nick, turned and glared at
Heath.
"Nick was only joking."
Heath managed to croak out through fits of laughter.
"Boy howdy! Lilly
you sure are a Barkley."
At Heath's last statement the expression
on Lilly's face changed from anger to confusion.
The look on her face caused everyone in the room to burst into laughter.
Audra ran over to the baffled Lilly and
threw her arms around her. "I
always wanted baby sister, but I will settle for an older one."
Audra squealed.
Then Nick came over and pulled Lilly into
bear hug. "Welcome home little
sister." He yelled.
Poor Lilly was even more confused.
"I think we need to be properly
introduced Ma'am. I'm Jarrod
Barkley. These two are my sister
Aurdra and my brother Nick. We are
the children of Thomas Barkley, who is also Heath and your father."
Jarrod said as he approached Lilly with his had extended.
Lilly took the extended hand and Jarrod pulled her into a hug.
"Welcome home Sis." He
whispered in her ear.
When what Jarrod said finally sunk in
Lilly burst into tears. She had
started this journey looking for her mother.
In Strawberry she found her mother dead and a trail that led her to her
twin brother. In finding him she
found her father's family, her family.
When Lilly finally stopped crying, Mrs.
Barkley told her of Heath' entrance into the family and welcomed Lilly also.
Latter that day Audra took Lilly and Sam,
for a ride to see the ranch while Victoria babysat her first grandchild.
Jarrod finally went into town and Nick went to check on the running of
the ranch.
Alone in the sitting room Victoria stared
at the picture of her husband. "Your
daughter is home now Tom where she belongs.
I promise that I will love her as I love all your children.
You have a granddaughter now Tom. She
is the sweetest little girl. You
would love her." She said out
loud to the picture.
Victoria then sat down and wrote a long
letter to her youngest son, Eugene, who was working for a professor of his in
Boston for the summer. In the
letter she told him that everything and everyone at the ranch was fine and that
he now had a new sister.
When Sam watched the two sisters
conversing and laughing together, he was glad that they had come to the ranch.
Sam also knew that Lilly would want to stay with her new family, so he
decided that he would go home and sell his store.
He would then buy a small farm close to Stockton.
He had always dreamed of owning a farm when he retired.
He figured this was as good of a time as any to do just that.
This way he and his wife could be closer to their daughter and Lilly
would have both of her families near her. He
left the next day to make the arrangements.
*********************
The day Heath's stitches could be
removed, Audra suggested that Victoria, and Lilly and herself should take him
into town, to see the doctor, with the buggy.
That way she could take her new sister shopping.
Then they all could join Jarrod at the Cattlemen's Hotel for lunch.
Victoria agreed that it was a good idea.
When they reached town they dropped Heath
at the doctors. Then went and
parked the horse buggy outside the dressmakers store.
Victoria Audra and Lilly, who was carrying Sarah, went into the store.
When Heath was done at the doctors he
went to Jarrod's office to see if Jarrod was free for lunch. Then the two brothers went to meet the girls.
They had just sat down at a table in the
restaurant when Silvia Olsen, a woman from the church social committee and the
town's biggest gossips, walk up to them. The
woman greeted each of the Barkleys. When
she saw Sarah sitting on Heath's lap she said.
"Oh what a darling little girl, she sure looks like you Heath
doesn't she?"
Heath's face went beet red. Victoria
was about to give Silvia a piece of her mind, but Lilly spoke first.
"Sarah does have blond hair and blue
eyes like her Uncle Heath and Aunt Audra, but she looks like her father, my late
husband." Silvia stood there
with her mouth open not knowing what to say.
"I
would like you to meet Lilly, Heath's twin sister."
Victoria said loud enough to be heard by every customer in the
restaurant.
"Its good to meet you."
Silvia stammered and then walked away.
After she left the Barkleys had a good
laugh. "I think that we should
have a party and introduce Lilly properly to the Valley." Victoria stated.
"That's a great idea mother."
Audra squealed.
Heath leaned over toward Lilly and
whispered. "You will find that
they will use any excuse for a party."
Audra playfully slapped Heath.
A week later they held the party and
Eugene came home to meet his new sister.
*****The End
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